Things that need no explanation and perhaps have none, but which say: ‘Here! This way!’ and with final authority.
It is for them that I will be held responsible.
They lead further and further in that direction that has been shown me and to which I am called.
merton
I finished my first week yesterday.
Brisbane and I are over this go-round and today
in a few hours
when the sun rises and the roos wont be quite the road-kill threat
I drive south.
The giver gets more than the recipient. The recipient acquires something material and limited.
The one who gives, however, acquires for himself a good and pure heart.
rabbi yosef yozel hurwitz
It was an interesting week.
I thoroughly enjoyed all the women, yes,
they were all women 🙂
spending time with me each day
getting waxy and exploring the depth of our unique creative voice
in the paint.
It’s been a special week.
Reconnecting as well as meeting new
it meant a lot to me, deep down, to get to land here and ‘come what may’~
To be a discoverer you hold close whatever you find, and after a while you decide what it is.
Then, secure in where you have been, you turn to the open sea and let go~
william stafford
It’s also been one of the more challenging.
I return to Australia this go-round with preconceived notions.
I did the same last time.
I have to stop that-
having expectations
beyond my own form and functioning.
It is in these-expectations beyond myself-that I continuously falter…
I am not meant to rely on outside somethingness-
there is only work from the inside of me, and
the ‘expected’ of that.
There.
I began to delight in the feeling that I was in partnership with the powers of life; that I had to do with the operations of things created;
that I was doing a work to which I was set by the Highest; that I was at least a floor-sweeper in the house of God, a servant for the good of his world.
george macdonald
It is grace that comes when the discouragement of dashed expectations washes over.
I can see this much more clearly now.
Many lessons have been learned in the days and months since last here-
they now are rooted and growing-
this is the grace-evidence.
I may get to,
as I continue to profess,
but I also must.
And surprise of surprise, not quite how I thought.
-though it looks the same from the outside, I suspect.
I may not be able to quit the expecting,
but I now have confirmation of their grace.
this is enough sometimes.
and, I get to
get it.
in love.
trish