It just occurred to me it makes no difference that I’ve read it dozens of times it just occurred to me occurred to me ‘latin: to go meet’ it just occurred to me that when fear is let into my gut there is absolutely no room in there for the assurance I know is mine it’s run out the back door no it didn’t run out and leave me it’s been shoved out the back door like a swift flood overtaking a small branch swoosh gone out the back door of my being by the overrun of fear and anxiety when it invades my house so foolish I can feel it in me even this occurring to me and it is a wonder kinda thing wonderful yes but a wonder kind of thing also remarkable in the sense that I can actually feel the occurrence of this truthfulness of fact in me and wonderful that I’ve felt it gotten to feel it and therefore now know what it feels like rather than just read about it in so many books and blogs and even heard about it from preachers and podcasts no now I get to do something about it more than simply pray and hope and wish for it to be time for the fear to wash away and for assurance to return this occurrence has given me courage in the seeing of how it’s gone down this fear anxiety invasion so that now I get to do something about it I get to
pretty sweet