The light has not yet lifted this dark from the walls from the space beyond the flickering candle flame There is shadow and grey mottling the shape of things in front of me I have been here before I am not frightened As I have been before There is no more room for that To trust that I have all I need who can hear that and exclaim with joy I have traveled the world, far and near doing what I do And it is not until now here home as I’m keen to call it that it’s occurring to me It’s never been about the country traveled to This call to trust in a new place is not a place at all Not the flight to a far away or the land changed to my recognition or the people slightly different than those I’ve grown accustomed Trust these yes but that is not it at all in the end Never has it been about the travel that is held in time though that’s certainly part of it a necessary element to become in this place I am now realizing It’s always ever been about the new country that opens inside A whole world I never saw existed never showed up on any map yet has waited for my arrival like a welcome committee on the jet-way Heralding me with welcome exclamations welcome to your one true life reached now from such a far away place after such a long arduous route of travel You are here The walls start to lighten in this still-dark place I am The sun I see is coming This trust I’m asked to fall into contains nothing to fall back on and yet I fall just the same I’ll do it again just as I did each time the plane landed and with fearful anticipation I never was left without In this too this trust I fall just the same And I know I’ll grow to like it here very much and suspect I’ll stay a bit longer~
runon: darkness absolves everything~
