465: when I feel angry

the prescription is to hit pillows or scream in an empty room I favor writing it out ranting on paper it helps sometimes it shows me something I’d missed or a way to see around the pain frustration despondency all words that come back around to anger mostly...

463: I do wish for it

the end of her that is more permanent than this weeping trail of excrement we are left with seemingly never to end keep drawing out like a clothes line across buildings or phone lines from communications transformation or if not that this then something like radio...

462: before and after II

before my first breath a memory long distilled from my cells yet remaining as story told through human history I was alive some would say my self there inside I am not sure and I don’t need to know one way or the other my mother let the tunnel of my becoming...

461: before and after moments

before the first child after the fourth before the divorce after the remarriage before the book waiting here in the aftermath way long time after the book closed its cover