400: hostile environment

introspection soon proves hostile even laws of physics confounding prove out more reliable and real than the thoughts that arise sitting alone with chin tucked to chest that navel we so want to be right understand and comprehend and get things of this world well right...

399: a sadness comes in

a sadness comes in inexplicable no less even more painful because of that. no explanation, same inconsistencies and doubts, same stilted insecurities and fragile sense of rooting drying out reaching for the ground water can one accept this struggle continuing as it...

398: that’s enough to live by

For a long while I thought life was about finding your purposethat I’d slot into a rail meant for me and all would flow beautifullyfrom there in it’s own rightin retrospect it’s happened twicechildrenbook publishedyet clearly-or clearer anyway-nowfrom my...

398: the immediacy

of skin and heartbeat even birdsong fades a bit and sun burning into skin no matter even this the immediacy of life and what is right there in front of you comes in surprising ways sure, easy to see: in sex, the body of another so present that moment…. but...

397: today I was

disgruntled frustrated holding a grudge not against as if someone’s slight just holding foolish I know knew it from the moment I held it in my hand yet there it was rolling around my palm all the day long as I paint my sons garage alone then a run for supplies...