579: the tragicomic aspects

of attraction throw loops akin to a noose trying to be as nice as we can called thus we smile gradually hugely misled reality cannot be denied if we are still alive the apparent conquest has been nothing but a magic trick so here we are stuck behind this smoke and...

578: apparent successes

our will alone to please we think our self but it comes down to the feedback loop we enter into before we know it like the frog in the pot we are scrambling to get a grip on a sense of ourself

577: all matters great and small

to prove attraction we feign agreement the folly of this proclivity tears down to tatters the fibers we’d thought woven in truth powerful instincts cause this patterning maybe learned probably acquired through cellular transmutation we could call it a love dance...

576: emotional code

I know I am speaking in emotional code smoke signals to a culture not trained in interpretation lame to the language of nuance and wind there is a reason for it beyond stubborn disgust and conflict avoidance he tends to plane the edge off every truth I speak...

575: complicated frustration

I doubt the legitimacy of my desires no longer able to justify the one who chose this blindly many years ago if only the future could be seen from such a vantage there would be much less heartache and toil and maybe a lot more peace perhaps some loneliness too but...