I doubt the legitimacy of my desires
no longer able to justify the one who chose this blindly
many years ago if only the future could be seen from such a vantage
there would be much less heartache and toil
and maybe a lot more peace
perhaps some loneliness too but
that’s already here
anyway
either way
I want to go back and alter the course that’s already run
trust that the love of four will be enough until the finish line
not think I need a stand in for longevity
a legion of reservations stand in the whorls of my brain requiring an age to resolve