of the one I walk every breath

alongside never able to tear away unless you count the oblivions

I have loved her this me this everyday all day but today

oh so sick of me

there has been a long lingering need to fill the lives of others

ensure they can go on enjoy love create appreciate

and here I sit awaiting an overdue response the last straw the final yard the

hole in the bucket on slow drain

I no longer believe

nor hold hope

awash in despair

this must be the place where

I stand alone

and yet stand still could I make it stop impossible with those others there

I watch the world go by

and paint the picture of my life onto the back of the doorway

so who cares if it never opens again

I can have this image burned into the grain of the faux wood

forever as my ally