this road trip is it ten now or less

or more times traversing this landscape making my way across deserted cornfields

soybeans laid down  rolling hills that fool me into forgetting the headache of altitudinal arrival

I carry the high sky  blue in its infinite  seeming to never unravel even as the road stitches its way into the immeasurable 

heavy with its weight I think I will not go on  yet despite the push to fold under the heaving accumulation

the darkening covers  I find I do  keep on

and in carrying on this back of mine  this bold sky

this one time realization of

of what

expansiveness  freedom  possibility

this once again realization of weight on my back always there

cloaking  protecting?  providing

always the layer there  neglected for its constancy

reminding me  

or letting me find a remembering that reminds me 

or letting me find a peace for all the weight of years 

for years weigh  don’t fool yourself otherwise

why do you think the body begins to fold 

no one is left un-creased

for this short expanse of road  I carry  its reality  its truth  its something that has slipped past in that quick haze of early morning misted asphalt through cornfields in autumn

I carry

even as it needs no help from me at all

on