you speak as if the things you have to say do not cross my mind

landing in this space I felt blessed

though I don’t use these words anymore

to be here to be getting to do the work that is so satisfying to get to do it to your appreciation-

I tell myself to empower you to keep going

tides turn always it is natural

I tell myself this as your voice floats from the doorway into the channels between us

I have done the same though this makes it no easier

to love is to also never really be reached

the depth of need outweighs human capacity

always an inside job

that may be it to be here the end the answer only to keep trying

to imagine over and over and over again the satisfaction as one’s own

this way is not narcissism it has ever been born of need

for protection in order to love