before my first breath

a memory long distilled from my cells

yet remaining as story told through human history

I was alive some would say my self there inside

I am not sure and I don’t need to know

one way or the other my mother

let the tunnel of my becoming open

providing me this way through life

she did not agree never said so but it was there in every beat of her heart

I was not right the kind of right that was what she imagined for a daughter

so she had another

lo and behold perfection isn’t that the way along the roadside decades on she stoops

for this is all she can do anymore picking up fragments of memories calling me

beautiful talented so proud never again referring to the phrase passed through the tube to my ears

I thought you’d never amount to anything