that was the best explanation I could give anyway

tears as I walked through crisp winter streets at the time of publishing maybe something wished for

in the heat

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walk amongst the streets of my adolescents share the days with one of my sons look forward to four in a months time

boys my life they are past present and future they are everything I define myself around the tears fall with yearning

as much as anything and maybe just a bit of something that aches to look all alone a lot like

just me

foolish

selfish

chaos makes me panic long untethered time as well

where hope and redemption abound I want to shake a fist though never let it fly

not altogether true I would not give them up this up what’s next up to have that

I’ve decided