no

lessen

the weight shifts at least

sideways as if

ready to slide off

release from constricting my chest

I ask so much of myself make as if

responsible

for and to

and I am

we are

breathing and seeing

hearing and speaking beget this essentially

the weight I have called despondency ache longing bittersweet

not depression though it is trying to create one

depression in my chest

the weight lessens this depression forming

lightens

as I put fingertips to tablet

canvas

is this enough? Can

just this be real?

I wonder.

it feels much better than the elephant

still holding the longing