this town can feel like a curse
stuck
but chosen
I never wanted out I only wanted
in there is a difference that only makes sense when you are on the inside
struggling to be seen well
not seen because you can make that happen
outrageously
but acknowledged recognized attracted
loved
in the end this was the entire struggle and if she’d only seen
realized known
but there is no worth in seeking answers backwards
she is afterall
gone in her head
all that is left to me is the weight of forgiveness for letting me
faulter and fonder my way into my own
way
without her as the ground of the love I still can’t quite understand
for lack
began it all.
I accept this yet remorse comes with a price
the four who followed on
I pray they get out from the quagmire
as I did
sooner
just.