self sabotage

dillusion

I am reading these today

they have come across my visual landscape

I’ve not sought them out yet I can let my mind tell me I have

by will of finding new ways

we are searching-

he and I-

for forward

together

we have been holding hands so far along this route swinging

back and forth

it seems to be a time now

that we need to recalibrate the swing

or at least the

trajectory

or maybe height

the top of this rollercoaster ride

or maybe

the bottom

or

just the curves and angles

something.

any way

different than what has come before