Before the Brush
536: cairns
by pbsartist | January 7, 2025 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
I feel robbed of my usefulness five years gone searching my foothold slipped down a mountainside I built from the rubble of my past it was a beautiful cairn tall wide stable supportive until those that joined me atop its peak began to carry away stones held together...
535: and you there
by pbsartist | January 5, 2025 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
were I to believe my earnestness then you don't matter what to make of the carrying of this weight then shed were it possible the assessment the searching what is left after the acknowledgement no longer comes the admiration sloughs off the thing I thought was what it...
534: when the birds begin
by pbsartist | January 3, 2025 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
I know betterthere are no questions to be asked noranswers to be sought what if I often posit to wake on this Monday sayor even Sundaylisten to this song of songs that never ceases thoughalways changes cadence ...
533: and yet
by pbsartist | January 1, 2025 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
I can't do it anymore it's not hopeful it's not progress it's not change it's not impact it's disparaging it's discouraging it's debilitating it's sad so sad I am not that I must leave this hope and find something real the song of the soul was taken for a ride I...
532: yes
by pbsartist | December 30, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
I don't want to change the world it's just that well yes I do yes I do yes I do yes I do the world is asking for it I mean no harm and in fact only intend to leave nothing but something for someone else to discover and take on a journey of...
531: a storied reality
by pbsartist | December 28, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
A story is a model of reality. Something is always a metaphor. The hopeless thing in my heart stops falling and finds a small place to stand. Helen Garner The sounds inside sending up the day like the stomp of steps; the laugh of puddles; the deep reach of...
530: we are looking for
by pbsartist | December 26, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
we are looking for a new place this wintering of my soul is seeking a likeness on the outside he may not manage he may need to abandon my desires seeking out his warmer summer I must extricate myself from the unfortunates who ramble on or else I don't just lose the...
529: signs
by pbsartist | December 24, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
in the dark I can make out the signs I've been here so many times though never before I am lost to nothing if I am honest maybe I've misunderstood the directions but I am not convinced the mapmaker knew the way when they drew the lines around this...
528: paint mental pictures
by pbsartist | December 22, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
you're safe there colors you choose shapes you create images you recognize beyond earthly things such as school as this self replete with knowing we have lost but oh for some there is so much we have won I'll take the loss to get the gain
527: mysterious mysterium
by pbsartist | December 20, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
I used to climb treeslove means something different from such a perspectiveit waited there for a girl too young to know the world too old to stop what’s becomenot for want of effort the mother tried I’ll give her thatboy crazy nothing will come of you who says...
526: heart
by pbsartist | December 18, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
I read about heart being the navigator the barometer the guide to which to align our life a place to follow and to fall but I can't find resonance long years find me trying to agree to feel what they say is there to be felt now no longer a search a seeking a calling...
525: dateless
by pbsartist | December 16, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
in limbo between middle and old age done so much in the rearview yet nothing dead within life pokes and prods eager to do make create be in something that doesn't hold enough motion is the world holding reins or perhaps I am disillusioned thinking I can reign the...
524: if I want it all
by pbsartist | December 14, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
thinking behind the thinking a list of questions this morningthey seem to never end thought and questionis this enough to be called alivewhat if there is something behind first thoughtwhat if the reaction were not the real story justa seasoned...
523: be delight
by pbsartist | December 12, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
I eat sunlight as if raspberriesas if sweet candy taken in great gulpsa child with no restraintI’ve missed a lesson in the body’s propensities for reaction nearly upon us the solstice bittersweetturning goes on unabashedmy hands clench to keep the...
522: a haiku for you and for me
by pbsartist | December 10, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
back and forth choices such bounty this life allows like the jester dance we have options here choices every day that give life love depending how we think of it all as we choose and apply life really is a gift when we open up to the adventure letting stuff and needs...
521: monar ohar
by pbsartist | December 8, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
I trust there are lessons of serendipity in the soul we learn we leave we regroup these life experience comes back to us some call it deja vu views into the past serendipity lives here in the soul the spirit of each goes on and relives we glimpse these and call them...
520: flow
by pbsartist | December 6, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
full moon sagittarius sun sign all the knowing I desire meets in this place now the trust I seek is put on my heart no my hands or both as a gift and also responsibility I get to receive and accept both we are built as bodies in order to house the heart and soul a...
519: the moves we make
by pbsartist | December 4, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
the only way to know is to ask nothe only way to know is to search the stars that glimmer deep inside the bowels ofself then follow where they leadnever full conviction no answers and directions mapped out oh how I desire ...
518: you will see II
by pbsartist | December 2, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
you will see in the light you long for all along there not hidden just ignored or missed entirely yet all of a sudden so real so obvious it's never been hard the way we thought it to be we've just been trying to make the something from nothing- as if like gods- when...
517: you will see
by pbsartist | November 30, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
you will see in the light you long for for what you long is in the light
516: just a poem VI
by pbsartist | November 28, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
had we the time the world as it still might be could offer us depths of consciousness and degrees of wonder in and of its own intentions of existence we humans seek too hard to know when what was ever asked of us was to abide
515: just a poem V
by pbsartist | November 26, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
from a singular gaze one can receive everything required is the right eye and the open palm outstretched no one can walk it alone
514: just a poem IV
by pbsartist | November 24, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
the uncreated light alone is what wakes the soul from the darkness of slumber we all must rise like the sun first tinting the rooftops we too take tentative steps toward our full illumination
513: just a poem III
by pbsartist | November 22, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
what do you do when you only want to type out words revel in their beauty but a brush is held in your dominant hand there is not enough time yet also time seems to last so long I get to explore life through a strong will to explore find seek discover grow they're...
512: just a poem II
by pbsartist | November 20, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
when hope settles in after a long departure it seems improbable to have felt anything less than this now
511: just a poem
by pbsartist | November 18, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
Do not resist the coming of the day it spends itself willingly so that you that's it just you can rise and smile stretch if you have it in you and lean into the wonder that has been there all along do not resist the coming of the day its inexhaustible presentation...
510: hearts branches
by pbsartist | November 16, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
in the branches of the sidewalk trees my heart rests from long ago youthful aspirations dreams really but back then what was I to know those wonderful wonderings and seemingly oh so real visions cascading through my head my soul would grow starling nests squirrel away...
509: this body life
by pbsartist | November 14, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
just keep pace with the day and never ask what is this body life We are here for more than our self and yet we still have that self body form skin bone hair nails eyes teeth tonsils earlobes tend hold cherish when we remember this is why we are here what if oh...
508: n0 epiphanies please
by pbsartist | November 12, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
no elephant to tease my soul no wings to tickle my heart no answer to the daily request for miracles this wobbly place I stand enough the laughter bright on face knowing better the need the never ceasing and yet how always fulfilled despite our ridiculous...
507: the sun stays past dinnertime
by pbsartist | November 10, 2024 | OPENstudio | 0 Comments
The first hint of a season changing hands the initiation goes unnoticed just another plate at the table but then you look up a little brighter than before you realize the asking for more than lifting the covers the hot water bottle stored away though frost on the bent...